the bright light is is blinding....

well i come to the conculison that we need to be apart for life.. i have no more for you....today i had a talk with a good friend and i had a light blub moment.....

i think grandma chilvers i think she was a strong woman and took care of my grandfather.... and her daughter carole my mother was a strong woman bitch type and try to control my father...(probably the fact that he was gay)...and she was done with it...and she left...and me being the oldest of her daughter bonnie(me)....and i control my daughter...but i tryed and she wont let me.. and jasmine my daughter has her oldest daughter passion she will control her...and when passion has her child....so the cycle keeps going....but................THINKING...............

i thought that this behavior i learned from...nope...as i was talking with my friend...she says i was born that way...my grandmother time and my mothers time and my time and jasmine time and will be passion time....it the way we think...that we have to control or take care of...i realized that different time and different era...and because my mother carole lefted me i was adbandon and i showed my father...who i really was...and that i would make a point of it to showed them....that i was a control type person(he always mention i was just like that bitch..(my mother carole)and)....when i think back...i can see how grandma was with grandpa and probably my mother carole...and carole gave to me...and so on down the road...its in our genes....so....so its the cycle of life....and knowing i cant control my daughter and i tryed but shes a bigger bitch then i...thats why we clashed....and will clashed and until i say enough...WELL I SAID ENOUGH ON MY 52ND BIRTHDAY....IM SO DONE WITH THIS CHILD...AND I WILL STICK TO MY GUNS..I WILL NOT DEAL WITH THE EMOTIONAL BULLSHIT...THAT WE CANT GET ALONG...WE KEEP FIGHTING....SO JAZ...PASSION WILL PUT YOU TO THE TEST...AND HER KID WILL DO THE SAME......

SO...im seeing the light even more...as i keep improving myself and that i will not be a subject to her (jaz) bullshit...im so done.....i hope you get your life together girl....cuz u need to apply yourself..and if u dont thats on you..not me....i raised you..and u took your life over at 14...and now u will be 31 and u still dont got your shit together......your mammy

listen up bitches...

to all my daughters hood rats friends...make sure you get your stories straight...when u tell jaz......

I HAD A LOVELY CONVERSTATION WITH THE LEAD CASE MGR...OF DCF FOSTERCARE..LETTING THEM KNOW....ONCE AGAIN....SHE THE SAME OLD JAZ..WHY I ONCE AGAIN...KICKED YOUR ASS OUT OF MY HOUSE AGAIN..AND WILL BE THE LAST TIME.....YOU SURE DID CON THEM JAZ....KEEP IT UP LITTLE GIRL....KEEP RUNNING .....KEEP UP YOUR HOOD LIFE STYLE....KEEP ACTING GETTHO....MAKE SURE YOU RAISE YOUR DAUGHTERS JUST LIKE YOU...PLAY THE GAME WITH AND CON MS.TINA....SELL YOUR SAP STORY TO ALL WHO YOU MEET....CUZ THIS BITCH...YOUR MAMMY I DONT GIVE A FUCK....BE GONE.....

Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You

dedicated to my daughter...jaz.........

PIC AND VIDEO OF EVIDENCE....OF A OUT OF CONTROL GROWN ASS WOMAN

THIS IS WHAT SHE DID......................ENJOY BITCHES.........................

OH BEWARE.....THIS MAMA IS REAL...........

TO HER FRIENDS....IF YOU ALL ANIT DRUNKS CUZ YOU HAVE TO BE FUCKED UP DRUNK...OR TAKE DRUGS.....CUZ YOU ARE IDIOTS....OR....MOST OF ALL POPPING OUR PUSSY FOR MONEY TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR HOUSE AND KIDS....U ARE ALL SICK FUCKS.....

ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME....A THING CALLED INTERVENTION IS WHAT I DO TO THAT DUMB ASS GROWN ASS WOMAN.....OF A DAUGHTER OF MINE...JAZ...........I WILL NOT TOLERATE BULLSHIT....AND IF IT COSTS MY GRANDKIDS.....NEVER TO SEE THEM AGAIN...THATS ON HER...NOT ME.....SO YOU ARE AMONG HER JUST AS SHE IS AMONG YOU...U ALL FUCKED UP.....

REALLY.....THINGS COME IN PLACE...WHEN MY DUMB ASS DAUGHTERS HAS HAD A PIMP THREE TIMES IN LIFE...REALLY...POPPING PUSSY....WOW....WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS DO YOU REALLY HAVE JAZ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,REALLY

I WILL VOW....NEVER NEVER NEVER...........

HELP YOU FROM THIS DAY FORWARD.....A GROWN WOMAN WOULD HAVE A ROOF OVER HER CHILDREN'S HEAD...A GROWN WOMAN WOULD HAVE A JOB...A GROWN WOMAN WOULD DO ANYTHING...AND NOT BE IN THE STREETS....BUT U ANIT A GROWN WOMAN....NOR WILL U EVER BE.....U HAVENT CONVINCED ME YET....WHAT ARE U SHOWING YOUR DAUGHTERS....TO RUN....REALLY JAZ.....MY GRAND BABIES....MY GRANDDAUGHTERS ARE BEING TAUGHT WHAT THERE MAMMY DOES....RUN...FUCK....AND ALL KIND OF HAVIC....YOU ANIT SHOWING THEM ACCOUNTABILITY RESPECT FOR YOURSELF....AND AND PLACE TO LAY THERE HEAD....

AND U WANT ME TO DO THAT...THATS WHY I SAID NO THIS TIME....BECUZ IM INNAMBLE YOU TO KEEP THE CYCLE GOING...BREAK THE CYCLE IS YOUR MOTTO...BITCH YOU HAVENT EVEN TRYED YET............I BROKE YOU OFF.......TO DATE 12/19/11


NOW LETS SEE WHAT HAPPENS..................................

ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME...............REALLY

I SAID I WOULD TELL GOOD THINGS ABOUT MY DAUGHTER.....WELL THAT ANIT GOING TO HAPPEN EVER AGAIN.....THE WEEK OF 11/21/11...BEGINS....I LEFT FL TO GO TO IL....ON 11/22/11 OFFICIALLY JASMINE HAS FULL CUSTODY OF HER CHILDREN... SIGN BY THE JUDGE....

BY WEDNESDAY AND BEFORE THANKSGIVING....SHE LEAVES LIGHTHOUSE MINISTRIES.....I WAS STILL IN CHICAGO... ACTUALLY DIDN'T LEAVE CHI TOWN TIL...11 AM...TO GET  BACK ON THE ROAD AND GET BACK TO FL....BY 6:30AM FRIDAY..I GET HOME....I HURRIED AND PUT THE TURKEY IN THE OVEN...AND WENT TO SLEEP...I WAS UP FOR 36 HOURS WITH NO SLEEP.....AROUND 2:30PM...MY ERNESTO CALLS ME FINALLY HAVEN'T TALKED TO HIM SINCE LATE AUG.........

AS I WAS ON THE PHONE....APPEARED OUT OF NO WHERE WAS MY GRAND BABIES....AND FINISHED MY CALL WITH NEST....AND JASMINE DID HER ACADEMY AWARD PERFORMANCE AGAIN TO ME....PHASE TWO MA....WHICH MEANT I WOULD TAKE THE GIRLS...AND HER AND MELLY WERE GOING TO SHACK UP WITH CHARLIE BROWN.......

THREE HOURS LATER....SHE CALLING ME....I DON'T HAVE NO WHERE TO GO............I TOLD HER TO CALL ME BACK IN 10 MINUTES.....I LLITERALLY WENT INTO MY BATHROOM WITH WILL WILL AND WAS CRYING.....NERVOUS AND SHIT....WHEN IS IT GOING TO BE MY TURN....WE AGREED FOR TWO MONTHS AND I MADE HER SIGN A CONTRACT....THAT 1/25/12 WAS HERE MOVED OUT DATE......

SO.............................

IT TOOK 24 DAYS TO KICK HER ASS OUT.....SHE STILL CLAIMS THAT SHE IS A GROWN ASS WOMAN....WELL LETS SEE...ABOUT THAT...........

OK...SHE LAID AROUND IN MY HOUSE ON THE LIVING ROOM FLOOR...IF NOT LAYING ON MY LIVING ROOM COUCH.....CONSTANTLY I HAD TO WAKE HER ASS UP....TO GET THE GIRLS READY FOR SCHOOL.....EVENTUALLY I MADE HER WALK THE GIRLS TO SCHOOL...AND PICK THEM UP......CUZ AS SOON AS SHE CAME BACK TAKING THE GIRLS TO SCHOOL...SHE LAID BACK ON THE FLOOR NOT WATCHING MELLY MAC....AND NOT EVEN FEED THE BOY.......IN THE CONTRACT SHE WAS TO LOOK FOR A JOB...SHE DID THAT MAYBE THREE TIMES.....REALLY JAZ......

SHE FOLDED SOME WASH....DID A LOAD HERE AND THERE...EVEN DID A LOAD OF DISHES IN THE DISHWASHER AND OR PUT THEM AWAY......MAYBE VACUUM ONCE........


OH AND SHE GOT HER FOOD STAMPS...AND WE PUT FOOD IN THE HOUSE....SO YES I CONNED THE BITCH TO PUT FOOD IN MY HOUSE.....SO YOU LOST LITTLE GIRL.......NOW....A GROWN WOMAN DOES NOT LAY AROUND....NOT TAKING CARE OF HERE KIDS...LET ALONE FEED THEM.....SO.....TO ALL HER FRIENDS....LET IT BE KNOWN THAT IM AWARE OF HOW YOU CANT UNDERSTAND HER AND MY RELATIONSHIP.......

BUT IM OLD SCHOOL BITCH....YOU MIGHT CLAIM U ARE OLD SCHOOL BITCHES...U ANIT EVEN CLOSE......ONE DISRESPECTING YOUR ELDERS.....LETTING YOUR KIDS DO AND SAY WHAT U WANT THEM TO SAY...(CUSSING,YELLING ETC...) AND U WALK ALL OVER OTHERS AROUND YOU.....AND GETS WHATS YOURS......NO BITCHES.....


IM A GROWN ASS WHITE WOMAN....WITH BEAUTIFUL KIDS AND GRANDCHILDREN....AND I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANY TYPE OF BULLSHIT...OR LETS CON MAMA.....I HAVE A GROWN ASS BLACK HUSBAND THAT IS A GENTLEMEN...YOU YOUR NIGGAS..HOOD RAT TYPES.......AND U ALL WANT TO BE IN THE HOOD............................DO IT AND GO FOR IT.....YOUR USELESS BITCHES WITH NO GAME...ON LOVE...HONOR...RESPECT CARING WOMAN...TAKING CARE OF A GROWN ASS MAN.....WHERE U ARE INTERESTED IN GANGSTA'S FUCK U....ALL OF U...FUCK U...JAZ...YOU ARE A LOST CAUSE TO SOCITEY YOU A WANNA BE BLACK BITCH.....FUCKIN RED NECK BITCH....FUCK OFF