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AS THESE DAYS GO BY...I SIT HERE WONDERING AND KNOWING...THAT THIS CHILD OF MINE...GOING ON 30 IS MAKING SURE THAT I AM THE THE DEVIL OF A MOTHER...TELLING THEM HOW ROTTEN I WAS OR EVIL OR IGNORANT OR STUPID OR CONTROLLING I WAS....WELL LETS SEE..................


SO MY DAUGHTER HAS BEEN RUNNING THE STREETS SINCE SHE WAS 13...one...I TOOK CARE OF MY CHILDREN..HAD TO LIVE IN THE PROJECTS FOR A MINUTE WENT FROM A 2 BEDROOM TO A 3 BEDROOM APT (PROJECTS) SEE I WENT TO COLLEGE AS I WAS A SINGLE PARENT AT THE TIME TO BETTER MYSELF(MOM)(THE BLOGGER) WHEN  SHE  WAS 13 SHE STARTED TO GET OUT OF HAND AND HUNG AROUND THE HOOD RATS...RUNNING...SHE WOULD STAY OUT 3-4 NIGHTS ON THE STREETS..ME BEING A RESPONSIBLE MOM I MADE CHILD MISSING REPORTS EVERY TIME SHE DID THAT...(lakeland police) SHE  CALLED HRS ON ME 6 TIMES AND WAS UNFOUNDED TIL THAT 6TH SOCIAL WORKER SAW THE PROBLEM.......MY DAUGHTER...(i was told to cover my ass while she ran the streets...so i made thousands of child missing reports and then callin them when she came back home...one time the police told me to spank her...i said right i would have hrs on me for hitting my kid...) SO ME BEING MOM LIKE ALWAYS..SHE WAS GOING OR HEADING TO A CHILDREN'S HOME...BUT...THE GIRL GOT HER PERIOD....AND MOM...HERE MELTED LIKE WE SUPPOSE TO DO....WAS BY MY CHILD'S SIDE...SHE NEEDED HER MOTHER...SEE MY CHILD CUSS AT ME..YELLED AT ME...CONTROL ME AND KEPT THIS UP ...WHAT I  WAS SUCH A GULLIBLE MOM..THAT I TOOK CARE OF MY KIDS ALL THIS TIME...I WAS APART OF THERE LIVES...I MADE SURE THEY HAD THE LASTEST TOY AND SUCH...AND I LET HER TREAT ME THE WAY SHE DID.....(im old school...i respected my elders i didnt talk back sure the hell i didnt cuss at my parents...and if children and familes was back in the 1960/1970's tell my parents how to raise me or gee we all be the parents they want us to be..(DCF) RIGHT.............LOL...WHEN MY CHILD WAS HER AGE AND THESE CHILDREN NOW20/30'S ARE THE PRODUCT OF HRS...U CANT HIT THAT CHILD..YOU WOULD GET THE CHILDREN TAKEN AWAY....WELL I TOOK CARE OF MY CHILDREN...I GOT MARRIED LATE IN LIFE AND LIVE PAYCHECK TO PAYCHECK...SHIT THAT THE AMERICAN WAY............HELLO..............more in A MINUTE.....