being a parent....

so they locked her up....i didnt show on the first court appearance...i was told by lakeland police ...let her sit there...so you know u do this tough love crap..hoping it would work...nope....so when i did go to the court date...she plead guitly...and they got her in some type of program to this temp youth home...before they would get her a bed in this girls home in st. pete...while she was waiting...this court date...i remember i wasnt feeling good had a bad earache...the lawyer...a domestic voilence advocate...and guardian litem...so how she was saying im sorry mommy...she hangin on me..man i was in pain with the ear ache..she dropped to the ground...and i walked away never looking back...that was the hardest thing i ever did...to walk away...and cryed all the way out to the car....they saw that i really loved her..but i was hurt and done...(omg im cryin right now writing this...)she went to this youth home...i did make visits with her...sometimes i had to do therapy with her...but i was mad...angry...hurt what ever feelings i had...we never got along..when it came to her making the decisions she made...up to this point....so...finally she got to the girls home in st pete...wow....wait til you here this part of the story....